Things can only get better

Do you have a dream? What is it?

For my whole life, I have been following other people’s dreams. I always did what I thought my parents wanted me to do. I have never been brave enough to admit what I really want to do in life. I have taken many paths only to discover they are not right for me down the road, and then I have to start over. And since I cannot change the past, I am going to change the future.

I have finally figured out what is right for me. I finally know where I want to go and what I want to do. I’m not sure how to get there but at least now I know where I am heading. Knowing is half the battle... I am ready to take on the other half.

Clarify your vision so you can grow into it. I finally have and now I will.

Do you feel scared - I do
But I won't stop and falter
And if we threw it all away
Things can only get better
--Howard Jones, Things Can Only Get Better

Wishing you the courage to follow your dreams,
Becky

Trust Without Fear

'Walk openly into love with a trembling soul if you must, but do it!'
-Me

Fear in Trust
It's amazing how wrong I can be about people sometimes. But I have made a choice to be someone that always trusts first and if that trust is broken then it's time to move on and learn my lesson. It's hard to trust first though. It makes you vulnerable right from the beginning. A lot of times I am totally disappointed in the end and it not only hurts, but can be very discouraging.

I've learned that people can be completely different than what they make themselves out to be. People aren't always what they say, how they act or how they treat you. They can be someone totally different than what they put out there. Even though, I know this to be true with some people, I don't want the fear of it happening again to make me close myself to people. I don't want to be heartless and not feel anything in order to avoid being hurt. What's the point of living if it means living with an empty heart?

How can I avoid letting the wrong people in my heart though? ... I can't...no one can. How can I trust first, knowing that so many people have let me down? I know how..... By remembering the ones that haven't. The angles in my life that taught me that it is worth loving and experiencing emotional bonds. It is worth the chance that I take by opening my heart, because it is the only way I will experience the love that has proven itself to me through people like Becky, Jess, Lee, Jackie, my mom, God..... They are the answer to the fear deep in my heart. The angels that will always be there to mend my wounds.

My goal is to teach myself to trust without fear, because the gift is much greater than the sacrifice.

With an open heart!
~Lovebug

Hope

Hope is the expression of faith when it feels impossible that things will ever get better.

We all know that feeling of falling into a downward spiral of negative energy and experiences. It doesn't usually come one at a time or in small intervals..nope...instead it comes in big clumps and all at once. "When it rains it pours" - How true is that saying? Very True, in my opinion.

If you let yourself get lost in that rain, then you may never find cover, like a cloud over your head. It starts to weigh you down and soon you feel like there is no way out. You spend your days wondering "what's going to happen next" "Is life against me?"

Of course life is not against us. We ARE life! And living our lives means always getting through these downward spirals and turning them into gifts. Gifts of courage, wisdom, strength and even love. Never lose hope. As long as there is hope in your heart, things will turn around. When you are at your weakest and you still have hope - those are the moments you realize that you and life are one.

Signing off with a hopeful heart at a time I need it most,
Lovebug